i got to admit,those previous camps shi4 zai4 na4 bian1 wan2 wan2 er2 yi3den in the end i ended up learning nothing/alittle bit den afew days jiu4 wang4 ji4 ler3
sry this com no chinese den the on top one is from shu ning's blog.

at first i knew nothing bout this i only know that Jesus comes and brings those who xing 4 ta1 up to heaven den those who dun just get suffering...

but then the jiang yuan actually showed how distressing is the suffering... its like i dun want my friend /relatives to be in that scene and it just frustrates me that they just dun want to listen especially my grandma cause she can't stand dao's like me last time but there and then again its mostly due to the fact that worldly desires like dancing(my grandma loves dancing) and 4D etc etc will like block her ears to listen. But then she seems to like my uncle's church which is abit like city harvest but then shi bing dao shi said that even these kind of Christians should be able to 被提 too if they really believe.but then im still a bit worried for her... and pray and hope that she'll believe like my grandfather who i presume is in heaven now.

and the most scary thing is that i think that i might go through that pain and suffering cause yeah i'm not a very good christian at all... not only that i huai2 yi2 myself,i also huai yi God. yeah its like whether he's really there anot or is some other religion right bout their Gods but after what i heard from Wenxi's experience i some sort of dun huai yi him anymore. i remember a story that zhang lao said which is that there is once a guy who is a very devoted christian den in army he some sorta upturn the whole van (he's the driver) and then will get harsh punishments den he told everyone to pray for him but still in the end he still got the punishments and then he left the church. Now you might think that God doesn't listen to our prayers or exist but then if you look at another view, God did help him, he managed to get out of the upturned van(which is very heavy) unscathed.God protected him all the while.

so yeah you really got to count your blessings and look at another perspective and yeah God listens to our prayers.

and yeah im forcing myself not to spit out vulgarities again cause we must honer God in everything we do and say so if like continue to say these kind of things i would like disrespect God... These really make me feel shameful of what i did and treated to some ppl... like Qizhang.

Its like what i do, makes me look like im not a christian at all and some retarded hooligan. So yeah thank God for waking me up and i hope and pray i can be a better christian.And i mean it with all my heart.

Now i just hope that i can find my God given en1 ci4 cause yeah i still can't find it. oh yeah Wen xi said that its my en ci is drawing but then yeah i can't find ways to shi feng in that sense and it some what now i feel that i abuse it to draw other stuff...

oh yay Wenxi replied =D umm she said that i can help to draw/decorate the shou ce... so yeah but then God actually gave me a chance to like to do the soverners but then i really misuse the chance so yeah pray that God can give me another chance.

yeah & i get to know some ppl better like Cassandra =D

and the water dirty games was fun especially the last one...

details next post...
this one too long liao...
oh well... gd night.